It's true.  Cabbages do move rhythmically.

Peh...where to begin?  {{{Notice I rarely ever post anything when I'm happy? u.u}}}
Well let's see...José started calling me again about a two or three weeks ago.  Ugh just typing and seeing his name makes my skin crawl.  He called at first and I was pretty much over everything by then, unwilling to really do much other than be polite.  I could hear in his voice that something was wrong, so of course I asked "What's wrong?" 
"Nothing, I just wanted to see how you were doing."
"You sure?"
"Yeah."
"Well okay."
"I guess I should be going now.  Bye."
"Bye."
"*sigh*...*hangs up*"
So I hang up, vaguely worried because I'm gonna worry when someone sounds upset it's just how I am.  I go to bed.  Then he calls again about a half an hour later.  He's like "Hey."  And he says it in this sleepy sounding voice that he must know I love.   So I immediately soften my voice the way I would talk to a child and say "Hi."  I go downstairs to talk to him like I always do.  He starts saying he really misses me.  Then he says he made the mistake of moving on, remember this is just like a week and a half after we were done for what I'd hoped was for good.  "W-what do you mean 'moved on'?"  "I've got a girlfriend."  My only reaction was "Whoa."
"I don't really love her.  ...  I love you."
"Well then you shouldn't be dating her if you don't love her."
"Yeah but I can't just dump her to go out with you.  I'd look like an ass."
"If you love me and not her, then you're not being fair to her."  I really should've said "Fuckin' prove it then.  Leave her.  Prove you fuckin' love me."
He goes on saying he can't and blah blah blah.  Saying he loves me and blah blah blah.  By then I've got the idiotic thought process going again meaning that 1) I was sleepy and not thinking completely straight and 2) I was getting sucked in again because he kept saying that he loved me.  He told me he was dating Yuca, who I'd known liked him for about two months before we broke up.  I'd felt bad for at the time because she really, really liked him and I know about unrequited love and all it's suckyness.  At that exact moment I hated that girl.  Jealousy reflex, go figure.  Once again being in the idiotic thought process...  He asked me "How do you feel about being a mistress?"  Still trying to maintain my cool and not show my jealousy I said "No, I'm not going to do that to Yuca.  She seems like a nice girl, I'm not gonna do that to her."
"She cheated on me with her ex boyfriend."
"Well why didn't you break up with her then?"
He forgave her.  The only other person he'd ever forgiven and given a second chance to, to my knowledge, was me.  Because he was "in love" with me.  According to him he'd given me hundreds upon thousands of second chances, because I'm just that much of a fuck up.  Whatever.  Anygee, I was making it hard for him because he "just couldn't break up with her to go out with me" and I "was being mean saying that I don't condone cheating at all".  "But it's not cheating, I'm not touching you am I?"
"No but it's still cheating.  On an emotional level it is."
BLAH BLAH MOTHERFUCKING BLAH.  Yeah.  Idiotic thought process, just wanting to make him happy despite everything he's put me through, "Yes I'll be your mistress."  "Thank you.  I love you."  I can't remember what happened after that but I eventually went to bed or he fell asleep or something.
Anyhow.  This continues until Thursdat last week.  That was the last time he called me.  OH!  I didn't mention the most important part.  He is a sex addict.  Did I ever mention that?  I thought I shouldn't because it seemed like a private thing, but I really don't care anymore.  He complained that he hadn't done anything with Yuca even though he could've if he wanted to.  He claimed he hadn't had sex since about the beginning of October.  That's about eight months.  Not normal for a sex addict, but he was "inlove" with me.  Said he still hadn't had sex even though we'd broken up.  He could've but he didn't.  Because "it doesn't feel right when I kiss her, because she's not you.  I can't do anything sexual with her."  Boo goddamned hoo.  ...  He says about how he talked to his counselor and that his counselor says he won't be able to have sex with anyone until he has sex with me, I'm an obsession, a fixation.  I'll be honest.  There was a time when I was COMPLETELY willing to give it up to him.  If he wanted it he could have it.  I'd've done absolutely anything for him, and let him do absolutely anything to me.  That time is over with.  Wow didn't that make me feel fucking special...
All I can figure now, since he hasn't called me is that he was finally able to get over himself and fuck Yuca so now he doesn't need me anymore.  Good riddens I say.
[[[OhmyGod I swear if this shit keeps up I'm going to confess my crush to Jade and date her if she'll have me for hers.]]]

NEXT ORDER OF BUSINESS::
Amber and Eric.
--Amber::  Female.  One of my best friends.  Known her since ninth grade.  Best friends that year.  Went through a rough patch in tenth, vague friends.  Getting to be besties again.  Can be moody.  Dating Eric.  Loves him very much.

Me (9:08:01 PM):	You didn't do anything wrong.  You've just been yourself from what I can see.  The thing about you is you do kind of change from time to time but there's really nothing wrong with that.  So if you do change a bit it just like another step in personality development for you.  If he can't handle that it's his problem.
Amber (9:08:26 PM):	thank you so much
Amber (9:08:31 PM):	you underSTAND
Amber (9:08:44 PM):	i told eric about my mpd and that i cant control how i am
Amber (9:08:50 PM):	but sometimes he doesnt realize it
Me (9:11:18 PM):	Well if you remember I had a few problems dealing with it when you told me.  But I just figured "What the hell - she's still my friend."  Sometimes it takes some getting used to.  You've got a strong personality.
Amber (9:11:33 PM):	haha
Amber (9:11:42 PM):	he's had 8 months to

{{{I personally don't really think she has Multiple Personality Disorder, she's just moody.}}}
--Eric::  Male.  One of my best friends.  Brain twins actually.  Wonder Noob twins to be specific.  Known him since we were five, he was in my kindergarten.  Thick as thieves in tenth grade, thanks to English class.  Thicker than thieves this year since our discovery of like mindedness.  Discovery came about after his relationship status changed.  Dating Amber.  Seems to love her, not as much as he did.  Wants to break up with her.  ...  Envies my ability to crack my back.
--Their relationship::  Amber comes to me for advice and whatnot.  She see me as being the same as her beau so she can see what he thinks through me.  Eric who really did love her and want her and was kind of needy and clingy in the beginning is not like that anymore.  He says she's too moody and that she's clingy and she's suffocating him.  They're currently on a break, which she had to beg for.
--Where I come in::  Not to sound selfish, but I don't know what'll happen to me if they break up.  For one thing they're two of my best friends.  She's fun a good part of the time and talks to me and cheers me up when I'm feeling down.  He's fun all the time, talks to me for the fun of it, is just the same as me for the most part, and I've just found out that if he knows something's wrong with me he'll cheer me too.  EVIDENCE::

Eric (11:26:09 PM):	why does you have lameface?
Eric (11:28:50 PM):	wonder noob twin?
Eric (11:36:36 PM):	well im gonna go to bed, hopefully you're alright and if not...http://mine.icanhascheezburger.com/view.aspx?ciid=4304870
Eric (11:36:39 PM):	http://mine.icanhascheezburger.com/view.aspx?ciid=4304870
Eric (11:36:47 PM):	night

He sent this because I've my status on AIM as "I is be a lameface".  I didn't notice he messaged me and now I feel bad.
I will say this, knowing full well I sound like one of those egotistical bitches that thinks people love her, I think he might have had a crush on me sophomore year.  Might have.  We screwed around in that class too, not nearly as much as we do now.  David had a thing about stabbing me with his pencil "get shanked in Mrs. Shenk's class, it's perfect".  He was a 'tard.  Eric on more than one occassion saved me from him, because personally I don't like being stabbed.  He threatened to beat on him once, if I recall correctly, if he stabbed me.  When our class would play review games sometimes Eric would sit behind me so David couldn't, because of course David would inevitably stab me.  And I will admit, I had a thing for Eric then, even though at that point I was really into Canadian Joe.
Eleventh grade started Amber and Eric had Algebra together, he started liking her.  The three of us had gym together, along with KT but she doesn't really fit into this story.  KT and I could see that he liked her.  And we teased her about it a little bit.  He finally asked her out on the 7th of November at 2:48PM.  I knoly know this because Amber messaged me with the exact time after school.  In like January they broke up for three days and got back together.  I was confused.  Amber didn't like him in the beginning, she had absolutely no right saying yes to him if she didn't like him.  But anyhow.  They went on a break today.  Last night when she was freaking out about him possibly breaking up with her she admitted to me that she slept with him a few weeks ago.  I was completely speechless for awhile.  She's ashamed she gave it up before marriage, she's never been one to care about marriage.
Anyhow, today she was crying in her Advanced Drawing class because of this whole mess.  Josh and Bryce (((who really can't draw in my opinion and has about as much business being in that class as I do))) tried to comfort.  Bryce had the nerve to tell her that Eric and I are all over each other during English, and Josh backed her up which makes no sense because he can hardly see us from his seat.  {{{Eric and I sit one diagonal from each other, Gina's behind me and Bryce is infront of him which makes her beside me.}}}  Okay I admit, we kick each other during class.  And we stack our feet, that doesn't seem like the right way to put but I don't know how else to say it.  Y'know ummm....like when you're trying to decide which team goes first in a baseball game and you take a bat and one person puts their hand on it and then the other puts their hand above their's, going the whole way up the bat until there's no more room and someone's hand is on top so they go first.  Yeah that's what we do, minus that bat and using our feet.   Like, he'll put his foot ontop of mine and I'll put my other foot ontop of his and he puts his other ontop of mine.  Then I pull mine off the bottom and put it ontop of his, he does the same.  And it just keeps going.  Until either we have to seperate or one of us gets tired of playing [[[even though we'll inevitably be playing again later]]] or we just keep or feet in the same position unchanging.  We did the latter today.  We were playing during a movie and he just ceased to move his foot out from under mine, I even gave him space to do it, so we sat there until the end of class his right, my left, his left, my right.  That was a good fifteen-twenty minutes or so.  I gotta say my right leg was getting tired because I was trying to keep the full weight of it off of him since he's had some problems with his feet in the past, but I kept my leg there 'cause I couldn't let him win.
Uhm.  Anyhow.

Amber (7:46:45 PM):	especially with whut bryce and josh said this morning
Me (7:46:55 PM):	What'd they say?
Amber (7:47:50 PM):	in advanced drawing, i came in and sat down and just started bawling and when they came in and tried to comfort me. i calmed down and everything and then bryce brought up how you and eric are always all over each other in english and then josh backed her up and it was just so weird.
Amber (7:48:08 PM):	because i know you wouldnt try to hit on eric...he's like your twin.

There's that whole Bryce and Josh thing.  I don't think I hit on Eric.  I'm not even sure I flirt with Eric.  I might, I don't know.  I'm a touchy person, I like to touch people.  It makes me feel better.  Makes me happy.  I'm almost alway touching someone, and if I'm not I'd like to be.  Problem is there're few people willing to let me touch them a lot, and even then they've got a point where they're like "Could you please stop touching me?" ...   This is where vague psychic vampire references come in.  If the person I'm touching is happy, I'll be happier.  If they're sad, I'll feel sad.  If they're mad, well I'm calm simply because I want them to calm down.  So if touching a lot constitutes flirting or hitting on then I'm a damned whore.
I will admit that there is something to how much Eric and I touch.  Oh yeah, don't think of touching as in a dirty way the only time it's dirty is when me and my girl friends are playing around, and then it's just being goofy.  Anyhow.  Yeah.  I touch him more than anyone else, except my mom but that's only because I sleep in the same bed as her.  I don't know if I'm crazy or what, but this sounded funny to me (((he was having a bad night)))::

Eric (8:44:53 PM):	sorry, i have a feeling this isnt gonna be one of my better nights
Me (8:45:16 PM):	You have better nights? x3
Eric (8:45:25 PM):	oh yes
Eric (8:45:30 PM):	i have much better nights
Me (8:45:35 PM):	Better how so?
Eric (8:45:50 PM):	i just have my hands full
Me (8:46:39 PM):	Sounds dirty. . . . . .  <--EPIC LINE BREAK.
Eric (8:47:04 PM):	hah
Eric (8:47:10 PM):	epic
Eric (8:47:11 PM):	lol
Me (8:47:43 PM):	At least you're not being all grumpy.
Eric (8:47:56 PM):	im trying not to be
Eric (8:48:07 PM):	its hard to cheer someone up and stay happy lol
Eric (8:48:14 PM):	but for some reason you can always make me smile

Am I nuts or is that what I think it is?  Personally I think I'm crazy.  I almost hope I'm crazy.  I think he was cheering up Amber through something.  She can be very melodramatic sometimes as you can see by this chunk of our convo::

Me (8:49:18 PM):	Oh yes I know cheering up people is difficult sometimes.  Especialyl the stubborn ones that refuse to be happy.
Eric (8:49:26 PM):	omg yes
Me (8:49:42 PM):	Sometimes I want to smack those ones.  Like bitch slap upside the head.
Eric (8:50:13 PM):	haha
Eric (8:50:15 PM):	i wish sometimes
Me (8:51:23 PM):	Gah.  Some of them just need to be smacked.  Smack some sense into 'em.
Eric (8:51:36 PM):	wow this is really weird
Eric (8:51:49 PM):	first person to match my mind so completely lol
Me (8:52:37 PM):	We would rule the world by now if we knew this back when we were five.

But uhm.  Yeah.  So he's my twin essentially.  Hell Amber had suggested that he and I date before she really liked him and when he really liked her, they were already together.  I always pretended to be disgusted by that.  I still pretend whenever someone says anything about me and him being together::

Me (7:48:35 PM):

Ergh no I don't want Eric.  Too much like a brother to me.

^^Tis after she said about me hitting on him.  Thing is....I don't know how much I mean it anymore.  I mean I still think it'd be a little odd to be with him.  I cringe a bit when I imagine really doing anything with him, actually I can't imagine it at all.  Creeps me too much.  He and I look at each other a lot.  Actually it seems like he looks more at me than Amber during English, but that's probably just a figment of my imagination.  And he hasn't been moving to sit by her during movies anymore, and she hasn't been moving over to sit by him.  I don't know.

Please tell me I'm not somehow breaking up their relationship.

Y'know, he just made this.  Tonight.  To send to me.  I can tell by his profile.  And y'know what?  It does make me feel better, even if he hadn't made it it would.  He sent it to me because he doesn't want me to has a sad no more.  Sweet of him really.  Makes me feel a bit better that he made it himself for me too.   I'm crazy.



Kya, enough of this song!  I've been listening to it this entire time.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zvq9r6R6QAY <--Damnit I can't seem to figure out how to put a video on.  It's not working. u.u
Cute though huh?

Peace out.
<3lurve

Yeah...Lindsay has been an angry little girl since last night.
José.  God he's an ass.  I love the kid, but he's an ass.  I had a random moment where I just needed to tell him why I loved him to see if I could make any sense out of it if I told him.  We later got arguing about Rachel smoking.  I didn't want to hear it.  I'm sorry but seriously c'mon shut up about it.  "She's a bitch because she smokes.  I don't know her personally, but she smokes so she's a bitch." ... "I hate the smell of cigarette smoke."  I had an oh-shit moment right then, 'cause honestly I'm quite fond of the smell of cigarette smoke.  It's creepy I know, but I like the smell of most things that are bad for you and/or are supposed to get you high.  I don't get high, and you know it.  But I do like the smell of such things as nail polish, gasoline, things like that.  Anyhow.  We stopped saying anything for a bit.  We watched TV for about a half an hour, calmed me down I don't think he really cared.
Then he got himself confused.  He wanted me to compliment him more, yes he's an ego on him.  I couldn't think of anything to say having been put on the spot like that.  He seemed to have gotten himself mixed up and thought that I was angry when I said all those nice little things.  So he goes "I know how to make you angry."  I didn't say anything because a sadomasochistic part of me wanted to hear where this was going.  He proceeds to tell me about having sex with one of his ex-girlfriend's.  As unecessary as this is to say, it made me angry.  Nice semi-long pause.  He asks me "So how do you feel now?"  I respond with "Pissed."  There was a pause, "Are you really mad at me?"  "Yes I am."  I can't completely remember everything that was said after that in the flurry of emotion that followed.  But I do remember he got quite upset with himself.  I told him I forgave him, that I wasn't mad.  I wasn't entirely lying there.  I wasn't mad.  It was one of those moments where I felt absolutely no emotion at all.  Except for disappointment, I was damn disappointed in him for telling me something like that.  I asked him "What in God's name made you think that by making me angry I would compliment you?"  "I don't know."  Fuckin' dumbass.
So he was all upset about it.  I got him to calm down, he changed the subject to something I just wasn't interested in at the moment.  Then he started complaining about me not wanting to talk about it.  "I'll let you say 'I love you' if you do this for me."  "No."  "Ow...that really hurt.  Like seriously I don't know.  When you said no, it's just like my chest started hurting really bad."  Then it wrapped right back around. "Why do I feel like you hate me?" he asks.  "I don't know love."  "No, I really feel like you hate me."  "Well I don't."  Blah blah blah.  It ended on that.  He had to go.  It was nearly three in the morning.  We got off the phone with him thinking I hate him.  So I was worried about him, because I don't want him to feel bad.  But now I'm just angry, because the full extent of all that finally hit me.
Oh yeah, and I'm not allowed to say 'I forgive you' or 'I love you' until he makes it up to me.  How he's going to make it up to me I've no idea.  Seriously.  So he'll say 'I love you' and I just sit there and have to be quiet.  If I say it he'll get made at me, he was only teasing about getting mad but I tremendously don't like the prospect of him being angry with me.  I've made him mad before, and that time I started crying because I felt bad.  He told me "No don't cry.  If you cry you'll just make it worse."  If there's one thing that will NOT make my stop crying it's being told not to cry by the person who is the reason I'm in tears in the first place.  You make me cry, say 'Don't cry', I'll just start crying even more.
Ugh.  I hate guys.  They're so stupid.
And what he told me is one of those things that is gonna stick in my head for the rest of my life.  I ALWAYS remember things I do not want to remember.  Liiiiiike...random fights, doing something I should not have but didn't realise in the moment, seeing things I wish I'd never seen, things like that.  The worst part is my damn imagination pictures it too.

I'm so glad to have Amber.  You've no idea.  One night, José messaged me.  {{{This was just after I'd gotten my hair dyed back to brunette.}}}  He messages me saying "ur pic looks funny".  That hit me weird, like it freaked me out.  "u were cuter with green hair."  I messaged Amber, told her I needed a hug.  She messaged me back awhile later, totally freaking out.  I told her everything.  Everything.  And she calmed me down.  Made me happy again.   The weird thing is she sucks at that kind of stuff, but it still worked.  She's helpful when I'm angry or upset.  We'll start talking about Eric getting breat enhancements or Mr. Curtis and drawing mustaches on our fingers, and I'll feel better.  Not 100%, but hella better.

I start new classes tomorrow.  YAY!

Went to the mall with Rachel on Friday.  We brought along Ham [[[Sam]]].  He no talkies much.  We got to play around with Josta for awhile.  Joked about the candy he gave us, said it was covered in GHB.  Not something to joke about in all seriousness, but it was funny at the moment.  He stole my brown Sharpie, I got it back.  Gave pennies to his friend to throw at him, I hate pennies so I don't care.  I bought a Joker blanket, and it's so cuddly warm. :D  Rachel bought the same one.  We visited her friend Chey in at Spencer's.  Totally kickin'.  Rachel's friends Amanda and her boyfriend Mitch showed up like a half hour before we had to leave.  I slept over at hers.

Blah blah blah, I'm boring myself.

Peace out.
<3lurve

{{{By the way:: I'm not actually watching That 70's Show: Complete Giftset.  I'm just watching it on TV. ^.^}}}

Who remembers my completely bitchtastic rant about one Joe of Canada?  Don't be shy I know you do.
So he broke up with his girlfriend about a week later.  Apparently she was an airhead.  I admit I did a little happy dance in my head when he told me that.  We've not been on the best of terms since then though.  Every conversation we've had up until a few nights ago have been completely robotic.  Me just trying to not totally bitch him out and tell him everything he made me feel, and exactly what I think of him.  Him being, in my humble opinion, a total depressive emo asshole.  But recently we've been getting a little bit better.  Just in the last conversation actually.  We were getting back to normal.  Things were so mush better before that bitch showed up.

Oh...Josh.  Oh you freakish little midget.  Sorry about that.  (((He's 5'0", technically not a midget.  But little and freakish yes.)))
So he deleted me off his friends on MySpace.  Hai?  Hai.  Remember how he was totally inlove with me?  Well that died damn quick after I told him I didn't love-love him.  I ceased to be his number one friend.  A flurry of girls rotated through what was once my spot.  Until one of them stayed and became his girlfriend.  They've since broken up and he's gotten a new one.  I believe it may be the same girl.  Anyhow.  I realised he deleted me when Kynt and Vyxsin from Amazing Race were suddenly in my top 13.  [[[That's right, I have a top 13. XD]]]  I figured he probably just deleted his MySpace, no big deal.  Until I go to his and his friend's joint account and see that he infact still has a MySpace.  So I friended him with a little message attached 'Hate me now don't you?'.  He never responded to that but he did add me.  He's started talking to me again.  Only because I commented a video that I'm sure his friend, Bruce, sent me through their joint account.  Bruce is pretty kickin' by the way, or at least he was I think Josh may have forbid him to speak to me. o.o  So know he's being a little emo-y bitchface.  And totally not talking to me like he used to.  But hey what can I expect.

Hmm....EVERETT!
Everett is the coolest kid-whose-face-sorta-reminds-me-of-a-terrier-puppy to ever live.  Amber thinks I'm into him.  I don't deny that maybe I like him a little bit.  But it's bound to happen.  What with as much as I talk to him and I walk home with him {{{he's live 'round the corner from me now. :3}}}, and I generally see him plenty.  Amber's worried he might develop an obsession with me as he did with her.  In all reality he wasn't obsessed with her, it was a crush.  He just liked you woman!  Anygee.  Rachel says he's going to ask me out and she's always right; like with the Josh thing she said he loves me, I denyed said he was just a sweet guy, lo and behold a few days later he practically betrothes himself to me.  Amber has told me repeatedly not to date him, screw her she has nothing to do with it.  So I'm just awaiting the inevitable.  I can't say that I'm not a teeny tiny bit hopeful though.

Random other dudes I talk to:: Jose, David, and Anthony.  Oh! and Ryan.
Jose likies me a bit.  He's said that he wishes I didn't live so far away.
David says he would date me.  If I wasn't so young.  Oh I'm 16 and you're 19.  Big froop n' whoop.  He likes my personality he says, but I'm too young for him.
Anthony *gasp* I friggin' love my person.  He's writing a fantastical story which he sends to me.  And I read it greedily, as if it were the greatest Adam slash to ever be written.  He's my cooltastic Washington friend.  He works too much and doesn't sleep enough.  I'm not to call him sir as he doesn't like it.  He's been person since then. ^___^
Ryan! my pervy 14 year old friend.  Mister sour cookie.  We have awesometastic conversations about sXe dogs, Craig Mabbitt licking the mic in the video for The Flood, orgies, and LGBT skittles.  He's the only bi guy, well boy, I know.  He wants a boyfriend but all the guys he likes are straight.  So he keeps getting girlfriends.  Personally I want him to get a puppy. X3
Ohhh yeaahhhh....and Travis.  He's rather pointless and only messages me when he bored.  Psshaww.

Y'know what's funny?  I remember exactly why and how I started talking to all the people I talk to online.
My gorgeous wife Dom - I commented one of her stories on Mibba.  We got married the next day.
Joe - We bonded over Escape The Fate on MyYearbook.  And it's progressed from there.
Anthony - I was commenting on a post on MyYearbook about guys wearing eyeliner.  He commented that he tried eyeliner once but it made his eyes feel funny.  I told him that you get used to the feeling.  He replied that he didn't want to get used to it.  We've been speaking ever since.
David - He was purely by chance.  He randomly, extremely randomly, messaged me one day on MySpace.  This is excessively random since he was not in my friends and as far as I could tell we weren't connected in anyway. o.O
Josh - I had set my status to cold on MyYearbook.  He 'bought' me a blue scarf, said it'd keep me warmer.  I replied.  Our conversing progressed.  Died.  And has since picked up again.  As you know.
Ryan - I posted a thing on MyYearbook about the new video for The Flood.  I loved/love it.  He commented it and said it was no good because Craig is no Ronnie. We continued to argue.  And we've been speaking of usually pervtastic things ever since.
Sam - I almost forgot about her, I feel bad.  She randomly commented on of my pics on MySpace one day.  We've been talking about Panic! At The Disco, Bam Margera, and HIM ever since. =]

As for other things.
Amber's being a total imbecile.  I learned from Bryce that she's not been paying attention to her meds and has been ODing on them.  She just grabs a handful and swallows.  She doesn't even seem to care anymore.  Bryce used to care, but since Amber's been bitching at her about that fact that she's thinking about getting back together with Phil.  She says that if they get back together she's not going to talk to her anymore.  Amber just had an appointment with her psychiatrist on Friday, it pivitoly decides whether or not she goes back to her mental institution.  I hate to say it, but I almost hope she does.  Her MPD is causing too much drama.  She is causing too much drama.  She's going to end up killing herself at the rate she's going.  It'd be better for everyone all around.
Bryce isn't so bad as of late.
Rachel's not being so awesome.  She got all mad, at least she pretended.  Because I want to go to KT's birthday party instead of going to see Saw V with her on opening day.  I've not gotten to tell her that KT wants me to bring her along.
I like most of my friends right now, which is actually saying a lot.  I've only got let me count 'em, two close friends that I've never hated.  I've hated all of my other friends at one point or another.  It's easy to name who I've not hated, those people would be Dom and Jade.  I've never had a reason to hate either of these girls.  All the other ones, guys included, I've hated.  This doesn't really include my not so close friends, as I have a like/dislike relationship with them.  Or rather a neutral relationship.

I think there was more I wanted to say but I can't remember.  Give me a break it's nearly 1:30AM.

Peace out.
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